don't panic. I'm a lost case anyway.
I don't have any decent trainees either, so why should I focus. Sooner or later I will get beaten up prety hard in our Div I. And then it's time for me to draw back a league or 2 and start acting like a 'good' manager. Sell everyone and start over with fresh sparkling youngsters, building out a decent training regime and start doing things right.
Up to then I think I'm having fun the way I'm doing now. ;)
They are not your friends; they dispise you. I am the only one you can count on. Trust me.